I thought I would feel different. Lighter somehow, younger somehow, more energetic—somehow. But I do not. I have no lasting negative side effects from my second vaccination, but there has been no miraculous elevation in my spirits, either. They soared after the first one. I felt a huge mix of relief peppered with a little guilt, optimism, and great expectations. Trump was defeated, Biden was sworn in, and I had my first vaccination. 

However, in the weeks and days since, Trump has been acquitted; my neighbors still have Trump banners hanging from their porches and signs littering their yards. People are still dying from COVID, and the world is not safe for humans or the planet they are supposed to protect. 

It feels like the shot is giving us a time-out rather than a cure. Something impermanent and vague. I remember feeling invincible at eighteen, impatient for life’s adventures. Sixty years later, I feel tired, unmotivated, and afraid of death.  

Maybe if the sun would shine.  


People learn to love

Trump is acquitted by fools

People are dying


Feeling invincible

Impatient for life’s journeys

Now I wait for death

The Shot

It feels like a time-out

Something impermanent, vague

Rather than a cure


Later I feel tired

Maybe if the sun would shine

I would feel its glow

Good News

Trump was defeated

I had my first vaccination

Biden was sworn in

Published by Carole J. Garrison

I’m a conversationalist, an observer, a passionate participant in life. And now, in my later years, I’m a recorder of the lessons of my life through essays, stories, and novels. I live in the fourth moment of life, just outside the normal distribution of most people and it is from this place that I write.

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